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{March 24, 2006}   Reflective Break

So…it has been a while! Sorry for that.

The past several weeks have been pretty rough emotionally in Kathrynland. No particular reason really, I was just a little crazy and I tend to shy away from writing for the masses while I hash things out in my own mind.

Home was great, the wedding was great, the conference was great, and getting to bring part of my new world into my old world was awesome!

One of the things that struck me on the last trip home was that where the Lord has me in my life no longer fits with where He had me. I think a lot of growth and healing came from that revelation. I do not fit in the things of home any longer. Home being Columbus, GA not the place a grew up with my family…I will always fit there.

I don’t really know how to explain it, all I know is that I came home to my Florida home more excited about where God has me than ever before. I think that when I moved I only had a tunnel vision for Exodus. God brought me here for Exodus…true, but He also has me here for the people I will meet and the church I will plug into. He has me here because there is a ministry at First Baptist that only I can fill and I can’t wait to find out what that is.

In the meantime, big things are happening with Exodus and I am so excited! The annual conference is coming up this summer and we are preparing for that which is fun in a controlled chaos kind of way. There are also several other trips coming up that we are excited about so prayers for travel would be very much appreciated!

More to come later!

Updated 3/24/06 11:14pm

One of my pictures from last weekend…

 



As two of my bosses head for St. Louis tomorrow I ask that you join me in prayer for the Focus on the Family Love Won Out team as well as the representatives of Exodus that will be at this conference this weekend.

To promote this conference, Exodus put up several billboards throughout the city and a couple of days ago this happened…

REALLY mature! 

This is expected to be the largest LWO to date with about 1500 people in attendance. With that, however, they are also expecting many protestors and while there are many people who would like us not to proclaim the truth that change is possible, there are those people who are dying to hear it and we will not stop until they do! A little bit of paint is not going to deter us!

Randy and Mike share their thoughts as well.

UPDATED 2/25/06 9:12am

I just found out that a third billboard in the area was also defaced.



{February 19, 2006}   Another Part of Saying Good-Bye

On Friday I did what I’ve been dreading…I got a Florida license. I drug myself down to the DMV and I made it legal. I am now a legal driver in Florida as well as a registered voter. The woman who was helping me asked me for my Georgia license and I asked her if I would get it back and she looked at me funny and said, “Ma’am, you can’t have two licenses.” Well, as I handed it over to her I started to cry and when she handed me my Florida license I thought to myself, “I’m really moved!”

As I shared this with my neighbor he said, “Aww, you’re a real Floridian now.” I quickly told him that I certainly was not, that I would always be a Georgia Peach and no piece of plastic would ever change that.

Simply one more part of saying good-bye.

Then this morning at church the Lord reminded me of my feelings of disconnection with the Body of Christ and He made it very clear what I was to do about it. I was to become a member of First Baptist Church of Orlando. Thus began an inner dialouge that went something like this…

“I want you here, baby girl!”

Lord, I know, but Edgewood is my Home!

“I know, and Edgewood will always be your Home, but I want you here, now!”

But, what if Edgewood stops sending me their weekly newsletter. I can be an active part of this church and not be a member. Why do I have to do something so permanent so early.

“You have been here for five months! I want you here…just do it! Don’t think about anything but that. I want you here!”

So, instead of arguing any further I went to the front and I met a woman named Donna who walked me through the process. She was so great and patient with me as I boo-hooed my way through my story.

For 24 years I atteneded Edgewood. 24 years worth of laughter, tears, growth, songs, friendships, Sunday School classes, Bible Studies, choir practices, Praise Band practices and the list could go on and on. Edgewood is as much my home as the house I shared with my parents and my sister and brother, and they will always be my family. But facts are facts and the fact is, I am not in Columbus, GA anymore and I need that Home and Family here in Orlando. I am a relational being and I need relationships here. I need laughter, tears, growth, songs, friendships, Sunday School classes, Bible Studes, choir practices, and Praise Band practices here.

For some reason this is so much harder than I thought it would be; moving my letter of membership. Somehow it feels as if I am betraying the church of my youth by becoming a member of First Orlando. I think that is what the enemy wanted me to believe so I would continue to feel disconnected but I know the sound of my Abba’s voice and it was clear this morning.

Please join me in prayer that I would find a place of my own in this enormous church. That I would force myself out of my comfort zone and plug into the singles ministry and the music ministry. It is so hard to do this when you are by yourself and it would be so easy for me to remain a wallflower and get lost among the masses, but I know that is not why the Lord wants me at this church. Please pray that I am brave enough to find out why He wants me here.



{February 15, 2006}   End of the Spear

I saw this movie during the opening weekend and like many in the theater I sniffled, cringed, gasped, and cried through most of it. I found it to be a film of beauty, truth, and amazing sacrifice. It will more than likely be a movie that I own one day and unlike some recent movies with Christian themes, this movie was very well done. It was a movie I could be proud of, as a Christian. Do you want to know something else? None of that changes in my mind just because I know that the lead actor Chad Allen is a gay activist.

If you followed the news surrounding this movie you will remember that about a week before the movie opened the controversy began. Christians all over the country were up in arms over Chad portraying such a godly man as Nick Saint and while I readily admit that at first I was a little dissappointed I quickly got over myself. Others however, did not and while I am not fit to judge anyone, part of me wants to shout, “Get over yourselves!”

James Robinson and I agree and though he wrote this article several weeks ago I read it only today.

When Homosexuality and Christianity Collide
by: James Robison

One of the world’s greatest examples of love and forgiveness comes to life this week through the film, End of the Spear. The movie accurately depicts the story of the supernatural transformation of one of the most violent, savage groups of people in the world. Fifty years ago, five missionaries peacefully made contact with this group, the Waodani tribe of Ecuador, and were brutally murdered.

This week, I spent two days on television talking with Steve Saint, whose father initially located the tribe and piloted the airplane that took all of the missionaries on their final mission, and the film’s executive producer, Mart Green.

In the years following the tragedy, Steve and his family experienced such amazing grace that they were able to forgive their father’s murderers. They moved to the Waodani lands to live among these “savages” and show them a better way to live. At the time, half of Ecuador’s indigenous people, including children, died early deaths because of the tribal violence. Steve and the other missionaries poured out such love on these people that they abandoned their brutal ways. The story of this life-changing love is beautiful and moving. End of the Spear is a must-see, not only for Christians, but for all people.

Yet prior to this weekend’s nationwide release of the film, a controversy has arisen around the lead actor. Chad Allen, whom many will recognize from the television series Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman, is openly gay. He could even be considered a homosexual activist.

Steve Saint and the other movie producers did not know this when they cast Allen in the dual role of father and son Nick and Steve Saint. Just before principal photography began in the jungles of Central America, they were informed of Allen’s lifestyle. They faced a difficult decision: remove their chosen actor from the film because of his unbiblical sexual activity or show him the true meaning of love through the powerful film and personal interaction. After much prayer, Steve Saint and the film’s producers decided to keep Allen in the film and share with him their faith in Jesus Christ.

Allen responded to their openness and kindness, diligently and faithfully portraying the missionaries in the film, and responding to the filmmakers’ positive witness. By the end of the filming, Steve and others on the set thought that Allen’s lifestyle would be different. However, after several months back in the United States, he was once again publicly advocating homosexuality.

This, of course, is troubling to those of us who want to promote End of the Spear and its positive message without endorsing the off-screen behavior of the lead actor. I knew of this potential pitfall prior to interviewing Steve Saint and Mart Green on our television program, LIFE Today.
While I firmly believe the homosexual lifestyle stands contrary to the teachings of God’s Word, I also believe that such situations give Christians the opportunity to practice what we preach. We all have weaknesses. We all struggle with sin. And while we never condone sinful behavior, we will only see people freed from the sins that imprison them when we reach into their lives and show them truth and love.
None of us will find help or experience freedom from recurring immoral practices until we recognize our need for it. Few will ever seek help if they believe it will result in condemnation.

Like the father of the prodigal son, who briefly chose a life of rebellion, selfish indulgence and depravity, we must receive our lost sons with open arms. Take note, the prodigal did repent. He had a change of heart that led to a change of ways and a change of direction. He left his lifestyle and humbly sought forgiveness from his father, who embraced him not as a servant, but as a son.
This change of heart is our prayer for Chad Allen and every person who lives in bondage to some human weakness. Judgment and punishment are not what we desire. Jesus said, “Let him that has no sin cast the first stone.”

There are no qualified stone-throwers reading this article.

Steve Saint said, “My father would have never been like Chad Allen, but I hope that Chad will some day be like my father.” This type of love transformed a Godless tribe and it possesses the power to transform anyone, including homosexuals. Rather than chastise or ostracizepeople for their sins, we must show them a better way to live, so that like the Waodani tribe, they will eagerly change their ways.

The only thing that I do not agree with is the statement made by Steve Saint, “My father would have never been like Chad Allen”. It is only by the grace of God that Nick Saint did not struggle with homosexuality. It was not because of who Nick Saint was but because of who his God is.

I don’t think it was just a coincidence that the producers of the movie did not know that Chad was gay before he took the part. I think it was all apart of God’s sovereignty. Chad took part in a movie that was soaked in the Gospel. He portrayed a man who died for the sake of the gospel. Truth is not returned void, people! Who knows what the Lord did in the secret reaches of this man’s heart while he was filming this movie and what did the Christians do…we boycotted it! We should never step foot in another movie theater in order to save ourselves from hypocrisy! I guarentee, that had Chad Allen simply been a man who lived with his girlfriend the controversy wouldn’t have even been a blip on the radar. 

Should we have a righteous anger toward the sin that infests this world? Certainly, but let us not forget that part of that sin once resided in us and were it not for that sweet amazing grace we would be in the same state as our world. We need a better balance of Grace and Truth and the best example of this combination is found in Jesus. We need more of Him and less of ourselves. We need to remember that He died for Chad and others like him as much as He died for us. We have ALL fallen short.

In the meantime, I pray that the seeds that were planted in the life of Chad Allen would flourish and that our Savior would reach down from Heaven and claim him for His own just as He did with Nick Saint, Jim Elliott and the other courageous men who died in the jungle of Ecuador.  



{February 5, 2006}   Day of Truth Video

The new Day of Truth promotion video, by Alliance Defense Fund, came out recently and my good friend, Mike is in it. This video is getting a lot of negative feedback from several sites that do not agree with the message, so I have decided to talk it up on the positive side. Mike, you did a GREAT job!

You can visit the website here and watch it for yourself. This site is also a great place to find out how you can get involved in the Day of Truth in your school and community on April 27, 2006.

I hope you will take the time to go check out the video and website.



{February 3, 2006}   Thursday Thirteen #3

Taking my cues from Randy, here are thirteen things I’m grateful for.

1. My Moma and Daddy, who I just got off of the phone with.

2. The plane ticket they just purchased for me, so I don’t have to drive home two weekends in a row (weekend 1, I am singing in a wedding, and weekend 2, there will be a conference at home).

3. 3 point Ooey Goey Squares.

4. New friends

5. Old friends

6. Lazy Thursday nights after a long day at work.

7. His Grace that never fails to amaze me.

8. Two little boys in Columbus, GA who will always have pieces of my heart.

9. The purpose that my life has had since I surrendered said life to the Lord.

10. Brand new health coverage! (Moma, I’m a grown up now! ;) )

11. Candles

12. The train wreck of “Dancing with the Stars”. Why is this as entertaining as it is?

13. That I am not superstitious and can boldly say that I am grateful for the number 13.

Okay, everybody now it’s your challenge. What are you thankful for?  



{January 30, 2006}   Rush Hour Rainbow

So, guess what I saw on the way home from work. Uhh…how did you guess?!? :)

This picture does not do it justice but I was kind of in the middle of traffic. I was at a stoplight talking to my sweet friend, Julia from back home and I looked up and there it was. I just had to take a picture. Julia was gracious enough to laugh at my enthusiasm during the entire photo shoot. ;)

The thing that struck me about it was that the backdrop to the beautiful miracle was so dark and foreboding. Reminds me of life sometimes…so dark, yet the Creator is so eager to show off His handywork in our lives. We get so wrapped up in the backdrop and we miss the miracles right in front of us.

I’m glad I didn’t miss this one.



{January 27, 2006}   2006 Leadership Conference

What a week it has been! On the outset of this post, two things stand out to me the most.

 1.   I love my job!

       and

 2.   I have never been more proud to be apart of Exodus International.

Most of my job this week consisted of running errands, making sure the sessions ran smoothly, and doing my favorite thing in the world…talking and meeting with people, all of which was very affirming and encouraging.

The thing that stood out to me the most this week was that God made room for ME in this ministry…somehow that still leaves me speechless.

We had a free evening during the week and I was able to go to a local restaurant downtownwith many of my new friends. Well, along the way I got to see some of the beauty that is in this city that is my new home.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The speakers this week were amazing and in a way that only God could have ordained, they all flowed with such an incredible impact. Through the speakers I was challenged, encouraged, and convicted. I also found my pastor in David Uth from First Baptist.

However, my favorite part of the week was watching my boss at work…He is so good at what he does and I found myself at several times during the week thanking the Lord that I have a role in his work. Thanking the Lord that I get to come alongside him and support him in his vision and passion. It is such an amazing priviledge to serve him!

And when I think about all of the human reasons why I shouldn’t be here that Satan would love for me to listen to, it makes me even more thankful that our God’s sovereignty rules over human reasoning. 2006 is going to be an amazing year in the life of Exodus I wouldn’t miss it for the world!

More fun pictures from this week…

Updated 1/28/06

Randy shares his thoughts on the conference here.



{January 26, 2006}   Thursday Thirteen

Thirteen words that describe the past four days in Kathrynland…

1. Exhilirating; I love the controlled chaos of the behind the scenes of putting together a conference!

2. Exhausting…in the best way possible.

3. Restful; It may seem like a contradiction with the previous word but check out that bed…by far my favorite thing about the hotel!

4. Convicting; there are several things that I am definitely going to be “walking out” with the Lord in the coming months.

5. Frustrating; Coming home this afternoon I came home to an apartment that had electricity in only half of the rooms and since I only have two real rooms…yeah, you get the picture. I now have my refrigerator plugged into an extension cord that is crossing over my living room.

6. Educational; not only in topic but in experience as well.

7. Relational; I met so many people this week and it was so great to put faces with names and to get to know my new Exodus family. I also got to spend some precious time with some dear friends.

8. Challenging; We were exhorted to get out of our comfort zones more than once this week and I thought to myself…well, I’ve already done that so, not to worry. Well, the Lord pointed out the zones that have already grown comfortable since coming to Orlando.

9. Fun…Fun…Fun

10. Thankful; the power is completely back on! Thank you, Jesus!

11. Adventurous; to get from the hotel to the church we had to take the city bus that runs in downtown Orlando. It was fun and I loved feeling like a big city girl.

12. Contentment; there is not much I can say about this…I just feel it in so many areas of my life.

13. Unity; I have never felt more a part of a group of people, outside of my family, in my life.

 

Links to other Thursday Thirteen’s

1. Randy

 



{January 22, 2006}   Sanctity of Life Sunday

Today, churches all over the country observed the sanctity of human life.

My church back home celebrated life with a Baby Dedication service and I always enjoyed those. The daddys and momas holding on to their little ones asking the Lord to show His favor on their little lives. 

At First Baptist of Orlando there was no baby dedication but there was a powerful word from the Lord about why our lives are sacred. Is it the size of the life in question, or it’s level of development? Is it the environment it is in, or is the degree of dependency it has? No. Our lives are sacred not because of who we are but because of Who created us.

13 For you created my inmost being;
       you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
       your works are wonderful,
       I know that full well.

 15 My frame was not hidden from you
       when I was made in the secret place.
       When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

 16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
       All the days ordained for me
       were written in your book
       before one of them came to be.

Psalm 139:13-16

Pastor David Uth said something this morning that I just had to write down…”Abortion has been made a political bean bag but in reality, abortion isn’t a political issue at all. We are fighting for the right of every democrat baby, republican baby, and independent baby.” I love the truth in that!

For a year and a half, before I moved in September, I volunteered at the Crisis Pregnancy Center in Columbus, GA every Thursday afternoon. As I sat in church this morning I thought of Chrissy, Jackie, and Tiffany.

Chrissy was the first abortion minded girl I counseled. She was 18 and scared and I bonded with her in a way I never allowed myself to with any other girl. By the time she left the center she had decided to keep her baby. She was excited and I was excited for her. The very next day we got a call at the center. It was Chrissy…she had lost her baby.

Jackie was a 17 year old rebellious teenager who grew up in a Christian home. She came in the center thinking she might be pregnant. Even though her test was negative we sat in that counseling room for 2 hours while she talked and I listened. Sometimes I think the Lord sent her in there just so she could talk to someone.

Tiffany was one of the last girls I saw at the center. She was 26 and she was married. That is all I knew when I went in the room and I thought…”This will be a good one, she’s married!” Well she was pregnant with her best friend’s baby and her husband was in Iraq. She was set on an abortion. She already a little boy and since she had already had an abortion years earlier, what was the big deal. Yet God sent her to us anyway. As she left the center, Tiffany gave me no reason to believe that she would keep her baby.

I have no idea where these three ladies are, but I will always remember their names and I will never forget their faces. Chrissy’s excitement, Jackie’s defiance, and Tiffany’s wounded and haunted face. I do know, however, that the God of all Creation holds them in His hands and loves them unconditionally. He has a plan for their lives and I pray that they tap into that plan and the love that He so desperately longs to give them.

This morning I also thought of the sweet ladies that work on the front lines back home. Mrs. Carol, Robyn, Chris, Anne, and Beth…my Thursday afternoon crew. They taught me so much about the Lord and trusting Him through the valleys of life. I miss you so much and I pray God’s blessings on you and yours for the work you do.

 



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